of "I don't give a shit"-itis.
I heard back in the negative for a job late yesterday and while I wasn't disappointed I admit I as a little surprised. I wasn't overly interested in the job but believed the interview went well and thought I would hear a more positive response. Getting a "no" takes a difficult decision out of my hands but I was still caught off-guard.
It would have been difficult b/c I admit, the any port in a storm perspective is sounding more and more appealing. I've completely soured on where I am right now and if I was presented with another option, even if it wasn't my top choice, I'd have a difficult time saying no.
Which is not a good headspace to be in, b/c at this point my next interview is going to feel like it's life or death. Not a feeling that helps keep things on an even keel. But at least I get to take a day off to do the interview. Now I just have to not completely blow it.
Current beer-scale: 9.9. Buried the needle, Ray.